My Greatest Joy and My Hardest Undertaking

“Motherhood is a choice you make every day. To put someone else’s happiness and well-being ahead of your own. To teach the hard lessons. To do the right thing, even when you’re not sure what the right thing is, and to forgive yourself over and over again, for doing everything wrong.” Donna Bell

Being a stepmom to Jared, Camden, and Leighton has been and will be my greatest joy and my hardest undertaking. Shortly after meeting these three, they become my world. There isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for them, their highs are now my highs and their lows are now my lows. I would love to say that every day, everything is “Instagram Perfect”, but is just not true. Do we have great moments, fun experiences and make wonderful memories… yes. But sometimes I don’t handle the situation right, sometimes I get upset too quickly, sometimes I wish I would have done something different or done more and that’s ok because it means I’m trying. I need to remember to forgive myself when needed and to keep trying because that is all I can do. I hope is that Jared, Camden, and Leighton know how much I love them, that I will put their happiness and well-being before mine and that I am trying to be the best stepmom to each of them.